Today I feel a bit weary. The infrastructure of my life here still has some notable holes -- no bike, no car, no water glasses, no real bed, nowhere to keep my clothes...Trying to live with them unfilled takes a lot of energy, but trying to fill them takes a lot of energy (and money) too. I've been shopping for a car, and it's difficult staying motivated. Everyone has an agenda, and everyone is willing to lie. I do think though that once I have a car, things will feel easier. I will be able to get the rest of the stuff I need and really start to settle in.
I started babysitting this week, Thursdays and Fridays for 10 or 12 hours. It's great. There is one four month old boy, named Wren. There's something very zen-like about his routine: eat, sleep, play, repeat. I really enjoy taking care of him, and it's also great to have some pursuit outside of our little apartments. Theoretically we start work for Mac tomorrow, too, which I'm excited about. We still don't really know anything in terms of when, where, or what, but I know it will be great.
I'm starting to miss home a bit. I need to remember to be kind to myself; that this is a very stressful and challenging thing. Of course there are moments of frustration and anxiety and feeling overwhelmed. It is awesome and exciting, too, but it is a process with ups and downs like anything else. I can't demand too much of myself. I need to remember to be still, to reflect, to think about the Lord, and to relax.
I love you all so much.
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